Sunday Morning

For some reason, I always wake up early on Sunday. As much as I would love to sleep in until 9:00 or something, I seem to be up by 6:00. I blame the damn job..haha! I have to get up early through the week and now I'm getting older so by next year I'll be up at 5:50 and 5:40 the year after that, etc. Dang.

Yesterday wasn't the best eating day for me. Ate a little too much but am trying to keep myself in check. Did well all week even passing up cookies, cake and muffins on different days. Just doing the best I can and not beating myself up too bad for having a rough day.

I went and saw 'Rise of the Planet of the Apes' yesterday. It was pretty good and enjoyable. Successfully will reboot that franchise if that's what they're trying to do. The summer of movies is just about over. As stated before, I've seen a bunch of them this summer. I have rediscovered my love of actually going to the movies.

Some Summer Things

Well, it's damn hot here. As with everywhere else this summer it's been terribly hot the last few weeks. We had two weeks of shorts being acceptable at work but this week, when the first two days have been hotter than anything, we've had normal business casual dress. I guess things could be worse but I'd have loved shorts the last two days.

So over this summer I've done a couple of things...not weight loss related but just some fun things. Over a span of span of two weeks in early July I read all 7 Harry Potter books and saw all 8 movies. Yep, two weeks!!! I didn't do a whole lot besides read but I really got into those books and just wanted to keep reading.

I've seen a whole bunch of movies at the theater this summer. I've seen: Kung Fu Panda 2, Hangover 2, Thor, X-Men:First Class, Green Lantern, Super 8, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, Part 2 and Captain America:The First Avenger. I've enjoyed them all in one or another although I think I loved Potter the most and thought Green Lantern was okay for what it was but was rather disappointed and unimpressed.

I'm feeling better about things right now and for the first time in awhile, went through a grocery store tonight and only bought the things I "should", not the bad things I may have wanted. Although, I have to say I didn't really want them tonight. It felt kind of good. Hopefully things are turning around. I'll be back tomorrow night with some more news...hopefully all of it good.

Guess Who's Back

Okay, I've been gone for a long time. A loooooooong time. I've probably put back on about 40 pounds from my lowest point. Damn. It just has not been a good time lately. I haven't felt a great deal of stress which helped bring about my downfall but getting back on the horse after falling off and being trampled by a whole herd of horses is much harder than you would think. I've done okay today and am just trying to go one day at a time.

I have come to realization that I don't handle weight loss success well. Each time I do things right for about 10-11 months or more and/or get to 100+ pounds lost, I fall apart. Just utterly fall apart. I've gained back this weight and my pants are tight and all the things in the size bigger have been donated so I have two ways to go....either buy new things or start losing weight again. I NEED to start losing weight again!

I will start again with updates next week but the weeks that are gone are gone. They are the "Forgotten Posts". I'm sorry that they didn't happen and that things haven't been better and going in a good direction. I've let myself and you all down and I'm sorry. I'll try not to let it happen again and disappear again. Even if things are bad, I need to post my thoughts as bad as they may be and just go with it all.

Father's Day...Belated, I Know

I made a grievous error yesterday. This blog lacked a post about Father's Day and my dad. I saw him yesterday for a party at my brother's house and got back late last night. I went to bed pretty quickly b/c I was tired but that is really no excuse. So first off, I apologize to my dad for that and being a bad kid.

Anyways, I love my Dad. He means the world to me and I want him to know that. I wouldn't be the man I am today..even though I have my faults(although there are few)...without him. His love, respect, trust and guidance have gotten me through some tough times and without him I'm not sure where I would be. I hope that I make him half as proud of me as I am proud of him. He worked his ass off for his family and although we were sometimes not as appreciative of it then as we should have been, I guess that's one of the follies of youth. He never let us down and was always there with a few words of guidance, a stern hand of discipline if we needed it and an ear for us to bend if something was troubling us. We didn't always see eye-to-eye but that hasn't stopped us from forging a wonderful relationship and one that I cherish. He's not just my dad, he's a great friend as well. If I'm even part of the man that my father is, that'll be enough.

I'm sorry this was a day late but I love you Dad and Happy Father's Day!!!!

Monday Morning Weigh-In #48

Well, got a little bit of good news this morning. I lost 1 pound last week to put my overall total at 105.8 pounds lost. It was a little bit of something. I'm trying to get back to some of my good habits with a few slides here and there so far. I have a month to go before I reach a year gone in all of this and although I'm not exactly where I wanted to be after almost a year I'm still proud of the progress I've made. I haven't totally gone off the reservation when things have been bad, I just need to pick myself back up and get some good results. They're coming, I swear!

Monday Morning Weigh-In #47

Things didn't go great again this week. I basically stayed flat this week, gaining 0.2 pounds putting my total at 104.8 total lost. I'll try to post some more this week but we'll see. Things haven't been the best here lately but they're slowly getting better and calming down some with work. I'm still trying to get stuff done though and get a few other things wrapped up. It's been a looooooong 6 weeks or so.

Monday Morning Weigh-In #46

Well, the backslide has unfortunately continued. I've really been scuffling along here lately as much as I've tried to do better. It just has not translated into success and I know I'm really not doing all the right things. I gained 5.4 pounds back this weekend to put my overall total at 105.0 pounds lost. I'm not going to go under the 100 pound mark. I just really need a nice week at work and to just get into some type of rhythm. I need to quit stopping for fast food when I work later or getting pizza. I've been doing that every once in awhile here lately and I know that's a bad path for me.

Anyways, I'm not making excuses for myself...I've just done poorly and haven't been working at it. I need to make the sacrifices for myself and my general health and well-being. My mood has been sour and kinda pissed off which is definitely something that is affected by eating poorly and not exercising. I just need some good stuff and need to make sure that I focus more on me and the things that I can change and not on those things are superficial stresses and worries. I know it's easier said than done. I'm fighting myself right now and I have to get myself together so that I'm fighting the right fight....the fight against my weight and my "issues" with eating. I'm not surrendering and I'm not giving up. I've still got my fists up and want to fight.