Monday Morning Update #2 - Revised Edition

It's been a long week. I know I need to do more updates during the week but it got to be a busy few days. Watched some kids for a little while on Wednesday night, had some friends over on Thursday night and just had things to do over the weekend. It was kind of a weird eating week because I did pretty well....considering. Went out twice with people and then Thursday night had some deep dish pizza. Soooooooo, the rest of the time I actually did very well.

This week though I lost 4.0 pounds to bring the grand total over time to 81.0 pounds lost. I'm getting back on that horse and feeling a lot better. I need to keep this rolling and keep up with the small victories. I always want things so fast but just need to remain patient.

Also.....GO COWBOYS!

Monday Morning Update #1 - Revised Edition

Okay, so things haven't been going the best here lately on the weight loss front (as if you all couldn't tell!) I backslid quite a ways from losing over 120 pounds. Last Monday, I was back to having lost 70.2 pounds. That's a gain of around 50 pounds in a couple of months without really "trying". I knew what I was doing though and could not seem to help myself. I won't make excuses though because there aren't any that could explain something like what just happened. It's soooooo easy to put it back on and sooooo hard to take it off.

Anyways, we'll get to some good news. I ate pretty well this week and here at the end of it, have done some exercise. I need to start walking at lunch again and take care of some business. But this last week I did lose 6.8 pounds so my overall total is back to 77 pounds lost. I just need to turn the page on the last few months and know that that doesn't have to be my life, it can be anything I want it to be. I want to feel good, I really do.

10 Years

It's been 10 years since September 11, 2001 today. It doesn't seem like that long ago. The overriding things I remember from that day are some fear of what was happening and a sense of astonishment at the sacrifice of all those first responders. I don't know that I could say I would've showed that amount of bravery. It was amazing to me that people could be that selfless and make that type of sacrifice. I guess I'm just not that brave. Anyways, it just seems like yesterday that it all happened and we gathered around radios and tried to get whatever we could on the internet at work. Many sites were not up as they were inundated with people trying to get news. The memorials that I watched this morning were very nice and the memorial sites at Ground Zero, the Pentagon and Shanksville are impressive. I hope to visit them someday.

Football also started today which is very exciting for me as it's my favorite sport. Right now, I'm watching my Cowboys play the Jets. It's only in the 2nd quarter but the Cowboys are up 7-0, I hope this continues and Dallas can get a win right off.

I've been working this week on doing better. It's been a good week. Today I did some weight work and rode the exercise bike. Not a whole lot right now but more than I've done in awhile. My eating has been very good this week and very good over the weekend which is something I've been struggling with. I need to believe in myself more because I know I can make it through the weekends and still do a good job.

I should have a weigh-in update tomorrow. I need to figure out how I'm going to mark everything and record since it's been quite awhile since my last update. I'm determined to get going again because I need to. I feel sooooo much better and things in my life are good when I'm losing weight and eating better. It's time to reclaim my confidence and getting rolling again. It's just time.

Happy Birthday Mom!

Well, today is my mom's birthday! Happy Birthday Mom! I called her this morning and gave her her normal serenade of "Happy Birthday" the way that only I can. She so LOVES it!!! :) I'll be coming home to see her next week and spend the night like most years. I love my mom though and want to wish her the happiest of birthdays!!!

Sunday Morning

For some reason, I always wake up early on Sunday. As much as I would love to sleep in until 9:00 or something, I seem to be up by 6:00. I blame the damn job..haha! I have to get up early through the week and now I'm getting older so by next year I'll be up at 5:50 and 5:40 the year after that, etc. Dang.

Yesterday wasn't the best eating day for me. Ate a little too much but am trying to keep myself in check. Did well all week even passing up cookies, cake and muffins on different days. Just doing the best I can and not beating myself up too bad for having a rough day.

I went and saw 'Rise of the Planet of the Apes' yesterday. It was pretty good and enjoyable. Successfully will reboot that franchise if that's what they're trying to do. The summer of movies is just about over. As stated before, I've seen a bunch of them this summer. I have rediscovered my love of actually going to the movies.

Some Summer Things

Well, it's damn hot here. As with everywhere else this summer it's been terribly hot the last few weeks. We had two weeks of shorts being acceptable at work but this week, when the first two days have been hotter than anything, we've had normal business casual dress. I guess things could be worse but I'd have loved shorts the last two days.

So over this summer I've done a couple of things...not weight loss related but just some fun things. Over a span of span of two weeks in early July I read all 7 Harry Potter books and saw all 8 movies. Yep, two weeks!!! I didn't do a whole lot besides read but I really got into those books and just wanted to keep reading.

I've seen a whole bunch of movies at the theater this summer. I've seen: Kung Fu Panda 2, Hangover 2, Thor, X-Men:First Class, Green Lantern, Super 8, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, Part 2 and Captain America:The First Avenger. I've enjoyed them all in one or another although I think I loved Potter the most and thought Green Lantern was okay for what it was but was rather disappointed and unimpressed.

I'm feeling better about things right now and for the first time in awhile, went through a grocery store tonight and only bought the things I "should", not the bad things I may have wanted. Although, I have to say I didn't really want them tonight. It felt kind of good. Hopefully things are turning around. I'll be back tomorrow night with some more news...hopefully all of it good.

Guess Who's Back

Okay, I've been gone for a long time. A loooooooong time. I've probably put back on about 40 pounds from my lowest point. Damn. It just has not been a good time lately. I haven't felt a great deal of stress which helped bring about my downfall but getting back on the horse after falling off and being trampled by a whole herd of horses is much harder than you would think. I've done okay today and am just trying to go one day at a time.

I have come to realization that I don't handle weight loss success well. Each time I do things right for about 10-11 months or more and/or get to 100+ pounds lost, I fall apart. Just utterly fall apart. I've gained back this weight and my pants are tight and all the things in the size bigger have been donated so I have two ways to go....either buy new things or start losing weight again. I NEED to start losing weight again!

I will start again with updates next week but the weeks that are gone are gone. They are the "Forgotten Posts". I'm sorry that they didn't happen and that things haven't been better and going in a good direction. I've let myself and you all down and I'm sorry. I'll try not to let it happen again and disappear again. Even if things are bad, I need to post my thoughts as bad as they may be and just go with it all.