Monday, August 1, 2011

Guess Who's Back

Okay, I've been gone for a long time. A loooooooong time. I've probably put back on about 40 pounds from my lowest point. Damn. It just has not been a good time lately. I haven't felt a great deal of stress which helped bring about my downfall but getting back on the horse after falling off and being trampled by a whole herd of horses is much harder than you would think. I've done okay today and am just trying to go one day at a time.

I have come to realization that I don't handle weight loss success well. Each time I do things right for about 10-11 months or more and/or get to 100+ pounds lost, I fall apart. Just utterly fall apart. I've gained back this weight and my pants are tight and all the things in the size bigger have been donated so I have two ways to go....either buy new things or start losing weight again. I NEED to start losing weight again!

I will start again with updates next week but the weeks that are gone are gone. They are the "Forgotten Posts". I'm sorry that they didn't happen and that things haven't been better and going in a good direction. I've let myself and you all down and I'm sorry. I'll try not to let it happen again and disappear again. Even if things are bad, I need to post my thoughts as bad as they may be and just go with it all.


JIM said...

Glad to see that you are back on track!!!!! One day at a time!!!!

Jason said...

I've been checking back here and debating whether to nose in and ask. Regardless, I'm glad to see you back. This is too big a deal and you're too worthwhile a person to give up. I'm looking forward to seeing your progress!

Aaron said...

Sad to hear that you put weight back on. I'm going to try to join you on your 2nd wind. I joined a gym but it hasn't opened yet so I've been using that as an excuse to be a glutton. That's kind of a stupid thing to do but it's the truth. I usually hit a wall around the 20lbs lost mark. I hope I can get past that this time!

Brad said...

Thanks to my dad, Jason and Aaron for your good wishes and continuing to read during my unhealthy sabbatical.

Aaron, just keep on trying man! As you read, when I start really going I hit the 100 lb wall and I need to get back through since I've sabotaged myself back to about 80 lost since last year. I'm determined to get back to the success I had.

Jason, you're still an inspiration to me since you've gotten to your goals. You look great and look like life is so much more enjoyable. Sarah looks great too. You guys are wonderful and I'm grateful for your support.

Dad, thanks for being my dad and I love ya for your support. I'm getting back on track and am trying to just take it all a moment at a time right now.

JenMarie said...

YAYYY so glad you're back! I've recently gotten 're-motivated' so hope to get back on the wagon myself!