Okay, I've been gone for a long time. A loooooooong time. I've probably put back on about 40 pounds from my lowest point. Damn. It just has not been a good time lately. I haven't felt a great deal of stress which helped bring about my downfall but getting back on the horse after falling off and being trampled by a whole herd of horses is much harder than you would think. I've done okay today and am just trying to go one day at a time.
I have come to realization that I don't handle weight loss success well. Each time I do things right for about 10-11 months or more and/or get to 100+ pounds lost, I fall apart. Just utterly fall apart. I've gained back this weight and my pants are tight and all the things in the size bigger have been donated so I have two ways to go....either buy new things or start losing weight again. I NEED to start losing weight again!
I will start again with updates next week but the weeks that are gone are gone. They are the "Forgotten Posts". I'm sorry that they didn't happen and that things haven't been better and going in a good direction. I've let myself and you all down and I'm sorry. I'll try not to let it happen again and disappear again. Even if things are bad, I need to post my thoughts as bad as they may be and just go with it all.